24 Jan 2010

This is my wedding Day!! Aw, its one years ago...
so hard to be someone who can understand the other,, but we must try and try.. this is the risk what u choose, n u must do it...
Ive read all the thinks book about love, but for practically ill always use my emotional, not too easy like i thought..
im in bandung now, n he r in jakarta..
my Father in law got a stroke n my bro in law got an appendicitus chronies, he must be in opname n get something surgery.. but he did not want that! fiuh, this is totally make us tiresome..

How about our anniversary? i want he do something like a candle light dinner, or praying together, or maybe something different to do.. hmm, but i think he never think about that.. i know he is not person like that.. its okay, maybe i ll do something for this anniversary, just give and give n try 2 be understand what his feels,his life and his wanted 2 be..

I do love him,, with every breath of my heart..

To: Armanda Aruman,
power of my soul,,,
24.01.10/ 11.30 AM
Ill back to ur hug now,,

Penolakan Cinta

Awal nya bukan hati yg bicara..
Tp... Lambat laun Tuhan berkehendak lain..
Ada dua keping hati yg terbelah demi cinta..
Dua keping yg sama besar nya..
Yang, membuatku sulit berpaling dr kedua nya...
Tuhan... Akan kau apakan aku dgn 'ini'?
Tak tahan menahan gejolak badai...
Tersiksa..

Bathin ini tercabik oleh kecewa yg tiada tara..
Kuat kah aku menahan kegelisahan..
Di saat bersama keping yg lain, mungkin..
Tp di saat sendiri, sku tak tau hrs berbuat apa..
Berteriak.. Memanggil dlm hampa dan gelisah..
Tak ada sahutan... Tak ada jawab..
Yang ada hanya keheningan dalam kehilangan yang dalam....
Sedalam aku kecewa.. Sedalam aku terluka...
Aku hanya bisa mendamba dlm 'cinta buta'..
Yang terbelenggu dalam 'nafsu semata'..
Maafkan.... Jika ini menyiksa...
Aku hanya berdoa kita bisa bersama dlm asa.....
Semoga....
< Missing u with all the things we were done..>

By: My friend that he lost another love